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Friday, March 28, 2008
we're h-h-happening so quickly •
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation am super tired. been a tough week. i'm still the same though.
there have been late nights in school, and troubling things happening in the periphery. or i think it is. it's the sort that makes me not know whether or not i should care, stop and wonder. wait. where am i?
something launched me into this phase a while back, and as i'm becoming conscious on a higher level i realize i've been doing some things that i wouldn't be very proud of. am not very proud of. they're not serious.. just, well. i wish i had never committed, because once you involve that, it's hard to break free.
i've not been feeling a lot of old things. something taught me acceptance, i think. yes.. that must be the word. hmm. and.. now some part of me is trying to moderate it. all of a sudden i feel the need to get out of this stasis again. it's not that i haven't been feeling, i just haven't been.. feeling everything. never approved of that in the past, but well all things in moderation, moderation, right.
it's the same thing again, but maybe with a clearer head for not feeling certain things. like being awake, but only some parts of the mind and soul are conscious. it's quite sterile and mildly high. i hate to say.. that i feel tied down. and besides, it's not something that just goes away. you're not. i need something to let out the rope, more rope, all the way..
even with the best hopes at the start, it seems that relationships can degenerate into not being able to talk completely honestly with the ones you love. and this whole disaster started when that one went away.
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