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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
cold evenings in singapore •
it always makes me feel like i'm psychologically consolidating all my cares and concerns when i discuss random things about life with geoffrey. it's a good feeling.
i'm hurrying to write this down before i forget it, and before i have my dinner; i found the words to express one more thing that just bugs me. i find it hard to accept that.. people who i think well of- well, people who are friends, who i love lah, basically, can have such.. seemingly bad opinions? is that the word? ahh, i don't know again.. well, this case in particular(just so i can recall the feeling and perhaps find the world for it in the future), it's how these people(there aren't really words to describe one's psychological relationship with them) can be so.. judgemental? in a way that just seems.. wrong. ahhh.
i think the problem with me is that i'm slowly becoming more conscious about the issues i have with how the universe works. i do think i'll keep them in mind when i see the Lord and ask Him, why? is that ok..? xS
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this is post-dinner and birthday cake cutting..
suddenly i'm really really tired. falling asleep on the couch while waiting tired. like, both physically and mentally, but more mentally i think. psychologically has become a perpetual state, whilst cycling from issue to issue, hahha. gosh. is this burnout from studying? i think my stamina and speed for mugging really suck xp
i'm feeling more settled. like there are fewer pokey things jabbing me? cause the jabbing motion is like, over. now they're just, there. like how pain becomes a habit, that's how you're affecting my mind, you and you and you and you, haha. it's not meant to be morbid, actually(and i'm saying this because upon rereading that's how it sound ><), it's just that well. it's just the feeling when problems stop arising and you can start trying to accept life with the problems that exist already, and
hey, maybe together we'll resolve them.
no matter who you're with, life can't help but go on.
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