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Tuesday, March 29, 2005
•tonite i was just sitting around thinking in between sets. hmm.
friedyang. my first email. haha. when i was what. primary two or something. that time, it was friedy ang. friedy. haha. now only arnold calls me that. =P sorry, unless.. hahaha....
then it was fried yang. like, ying yang. i dunno why. haha. dunno when. hm. i just was. for some time. like, up till now.
so just now, i was just thinking, why don't i change my msn messenger account to another nicer username(i only use friedyang for msn messenger now, actualy mail goes to my yahoo account, thx =] ). But if i change hor, it will be like... very messy lah. then everyone must add me again, then those people who never come online often, will suddenly come online next time and see, eh, who is this guy. then just dun add me.
so i dun change loh.
haha.. anyway... what i was trying to say before i started spouting all that crap was.
hoho. i'm fried yang. so my other half must be ying right? ying yang ying yang...?
hahaha.... so stupid... how can it be. it's completely nonsensical. not possible.
haiz. dunno lah. hoho. even before i thot of this, i was. (put impressed smiley here, however it looks like). haha. like, so cool..
it's not so fun being the eldest always. well. maybe it's just me lah. haha. small kids okae, budden hor, halfway to sanity i just. haha. dunno what to do.
but why am i saying that.
i dunno what my point it.
maybe it's just.
it wld have been nice if only... ...
but who knows what it would really have been like except the Lord.
haha. i think you don't even know what i'm talking about right.
well. probably only one person who has the remotest chance of coming to this little corner of the web might have some notion. haha. even then, it would be so totally unimaginable. like, whoa.
but who am i kidding. that person wldn't come here.
it feels like i'm talking to nobody again.
Monday, March 28, 2005
just had a haircut. ick. stupid EChouse. aha.
i just look plain stupid in such short hair.
short hair at all.
gotta do philo and social studies i.learning now.
hah. "i.learning week starts now!"
Saturday, March 26, 2005
•hoho. i realise i'm using words like stuff, and like, and... ... ...
and stuff. a lot.
•haha. back from youth revival. was cool. hm.
nothing much to say here. dunno where i put put stuff if i wanted to say it. yeesh. i should change the add of the other blog. nvmind. just make a new one =]
my i.learning homework is like. totally not done. the only stuff i've done is like, chemistry. seems this year they decided to give relatively simple chem i.learning to all the levels. well, sec 3 and 4 anyway.
never mind. stupid i.learning.
i realise that i don't do enought stuff. i mean, bleah. people have the time to do all sorts of stuff. like. and what do i ever do around this joint. stone. sing. mess around with tennis. the nowadays occasional bball game, and the even-more elusive jap/guitar thingamajiggy. it's totally hopeless. i don't get any work done. or anything else, neither.
waah.. i don't wanna go RJ... i wanna go poly....... (or do i)
like, how do i know??!!?
Friday, March 25, 2005
•came back from choir at 11.30pm. totally blehed. today sucked. not that choir was particularly bad, we didnt see too much of toh anyway.
but that's just not it..
blogged the stuff in the other blog.. just felt it belonged there more. to check it out. if u want to. if u care.
oh. twisted my ankle. hah. people bet the craziest things.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
what too put as title//? •hmm.
kae. today just went to choir. late. stupid mrt took 1hr to get to bishan instead of like. 20min during peak period. bleh. how come soo big diff..? anw.. got there 1/2 hr late, kenna scolded by toh. "its unbecoming of a leader." ladeeda. anw. i think in the end he was. kinda satisfied. wif me. my voice didn't screw up today. thank goodness. well. recently(actually for some time liaoz) been singing more outside choir. whole load more than in sec one. so don't really have screw up choir days a lot now. yaya.
wow. kae. long para on choir. XD kae. what else... stil haven't started on hw. >.< die liao, thurs got math lesson thing, must hand in assignment, still havent do!
blegh... at first i thot, okae bah, not so much hw until unreasonable.. but i never do any, so now is wed already, gonna die liaoz. XP kaoz, still got i.learning... why cannot just give holiday... want to give holiday then give real one lah...
haiz. hols so sianz, nth really to look forward to. got choir, got good fri's youth revival, got.. what? dowan to try to list lah. its all so sianz.
my bball is now officially screwed. haiz.. tt's what i get for not playing lorh. but, how to find the time to play... got choir, hw, project stuff(like, dunno how many lorh), haha. doesnt seem like a lot right. but why am i saying all this, all you peeps prob have e same things. hmm.
well. wasting time is just so easy. it's hard to even just 'slack around' anymore. there's always stuff to do, even if it's just crappy wasting time stuff. it's still fun stuff. until.. see you see the clock and the pile of hw! and at nite before you sleepp, lie on the bed and think of what you did today, what you could have done, and what you would have wanted to do... if only you cld have controled urself.
haha. kae lah, me. not u. mm.
well. i'm not even going to ask anymore. just, thx if you do.
Monday, March 14, 2005
;;stupidstupid..//asdasdasdsdasd •is the 6k trip next year still on??
crud pls let it still be on. always stuff planned then *poof*
opps, forgot. nvmind lah.
hmm. i saw rachael at cck mrt a few times. i think. haha. why am i mentioning it. hmmm.
its just.. havent seen her for some time. haha. not even at gatherings much. hm. nvmind.
i am mad. for stupid reasons which i shall not list. blehhh. material stuff. they seem to matter so much until u realise they dont. then after a while. they start to again anyway.
this sucks. stupid holidays. stupid i.learning week. what's good that's happening??
sundays. morning training. good friday youth revival. chior when toh's not pissed off.
i need something else, Lord. yeesh. when will i be free from this. haha. yea. i don't mean free from that. i mean like, free to do.. stuff. to like, serve you. and stuff.
yea, okae. school is my only way of serving you now. cause authority says so. and i gottsta obey authority.
*sigh*kae Lord. just stay by me, kae? cause if not, i really don't have much body else. cept maybe dan. and music.
Monday, March 07, 2005
standstill.||\ •nothing much to say.. everything is so dead and screwed up. nth is happening around here. had a big bash up wif me dad cause my sis wreaked the computer and they were just, oh. ok. bleh.
mm. tennis is good. 'cept for one thing. i suck at it. haha. as if i can even play. well. time to start. trains e places where i need e training.
hw is still here.. every night i stay up until super late... i look over e hw, try to decide which to do first.. browse through em all, try to do any one of them, but somehow nothing gets done. and so the hw piles up wif my stress and emotions and things i want to or have to get done.
haha. tt was poetic. kinda. haha.
This time of the year always frightens me. Gray descends
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
wai! korea!!! •haiz.. got so much hw overdue... only first term and already so much backlog. blehh. must finish it all before the march hols hw comes in.
recently been dreaming abt korea a lot. haha. dunno. its just such a nice place. haha. from what i've seen. which isn't much. i dunno. just wish i had time. to do.. stuff.
yeesh.. i know i've only said this half a million times.. but the things i wld do with no sch... sighx. rather we. its no good if your alone. can't do anything. if we had no sch. but not everybody wld wish tt. and it makes sense.
blehh. i'm going to say nth more. cause its hopeless. heaven.. what's it like? cld we do the stuff we can on earth? its more fun, having to work to learn stuff, to meet people, to have such great distances between us to span, sometimes. cause we may miss people when we are far away from those we love, but somehow, a little part of us just loves this feeling.
it's the feeling of accomplishment. it's the feeling of adventure.
it's knowing pure love.