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Tuesday, March 21, 2006
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you know, sit back and look at the world, and a guy really gets tired.. there's a lot of good in it, but it's just lost amongst.. the rest of the stuff. and there's a lot of "the rest of the stuff". the world just looks to be one big mess.
and when i think about it, it figures that the brightest thing to do would be to get away. i don't know.. that's just my idealogy. it's all so screwed.. i'd rather live in a fake, isolated world of my own with those whom i love rather than try to face it all and make sense of it. it can't be that hard to make one up that suits.. everyone's living in a fake world already. it's just when you take two steps back and look at the big picture, read the news and how many people out there are saying, "you don't know what's going on out here. it's a nightmare".
singapore's just a good place for that, for me. we're so cooped in, by the government, and by ourselves. just by the way society is run. i stop to read some blogs, and listen to some people teach or preach. i start to think they see some things that i'm seeing, but then it just turns our that they were just making some random statements, that they don't really understand.. of course, i'm just saying all these.. there are bound to be people out there who know more than me. and i start to figure, hm, that's a good thing, isn't it?
i think i know enough.. there was the time it all came to me, and i couldn't stand it. ... thinking about it, i was a real wreak at that time. only by God's grace i made it though.. but i don't want to end up jeremiah again. i start to figure, okae. i know some, which is more than a bunch of people can say, and i know that i don't really know half of half of half of what's really happening. but i know that.. so it's good enough. good enough for me to decide that i don't want to know any more.. at all. to decide to start ignoring and building my own..
a lot of times you come up, here, or in person, or on the phone or on msn.. it looks to be that i'm babbling crap here. nobody seems to understand.. i'm not being overly emo or something even.. i don't know what to think, what to say.. i don't think i can be that way up here anymore. but still it's like, "huh fried, ur deep", "huhh fried, y r u so cheem".
so i'm tired already.. i don't think i should be saying stuff that people don't understand. should i? is that like speaking in tongues or something? isn't this english?
there are a lot of things that are hard to say, face to face.. because we don't know each other that well. it's not easy for me to work on that either.. but that's just me. i'm trying, trust me.. i'm just a guy. a a dumb guy, at that. but these "things".. they can't be put up here either. i just can't find the right situation for it. it's just feelings, that.. don't seem to belong anywhere where i can put them right now. thoughts, about people about life, and about how we could get along.
i can't put them up here, but what i'm thinking is, i wish you would understand. and understand that you is hardly singular, esp when i'm singular.. haha.. but maybe it's my fault. i'm not good at communicating anyways. but i still wish you would understand. then we could make that kind of world, until the Lord comes.
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