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Sunday, February 26, 2006

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at least see that it's poetry of sorts, and of different spirits..

"对于你的疑问, 我只能说到: 她是谁, 我相信她自己知道。就给她一点时间去想一下吧,也给我一点时间去想, 去检查自己, 因为在这种两人之间的关联, 第二最怕的是发现自己不是真心的。"

what do you mean? maybe nothing, but i'm interested in how you feel. maybe you're not too sure yourself, but i just want to find out, somehow.. maybe not for the right reasons, but it is because i want to get closer, to know you better. maybe you can understand why i feel this way, then.

the most familiar places are those you've imagined yourself in the most.. but it's just not that way with people. everything you can imagine, dream up about someone is just based on what you knew and felt in the first place, but in the end it feels like you've learnt something from the experience. that's why it's so misleading. the fact is that all you've learnt is how you really saw a person in the first place, but reality wouldn't let you realize.

haiz.. leaving inner conflict behind, the first quater is almost over.. time just passes too quickly. it's cliche, but i wish i could make more of the time i have now, in the sense of being with certain groups of people more, doing more stuff together. but there's always some excuse; school is just too much now, what with dumb ol choir that just isn't making enough progress, if any at all. feels like such a waste of time most sessions now, cause they just screw up completely simply cause they're not devoted to the music. only so few of them are. i'm just glad right now i've got an opportunity to work with these people and make a little music. maybe in the end i'll try to arrange a recording. four years passed too quickly; this year is the best, in a way because i got to know my batchmates better. still missing arthur and co though.. haha..

happy first month for huiqi jie's baby girl.. lol.. really quite wierd, because really haven't seen her or talked for so long. realized i haven't even asked her what the girl's name is.. haha..

trying to get past these stages of vagueness.. feeling quite lethargic. want to get ns over with and get to specialized learning.. haha.. the things one can do alone are actually quite limited, especially what with the prices of books nowadays.. realized kino has a whole section devoted to architecture.. lol.. thank you, japs.. but they're really quite expensive, and some aren't really all that. oh well. was much ado about nothing.

church choir is the usual, and they did the poster things today. to quote, it's actually quite freaky.. eyes, including single ones pasted all over sheets of paper. but it gets the job done.. lol.. i'm really in no position to comment, am i.. haha..

aguss still hasn't replied, so all my plans for tomorrow are going down the drain, i guess.. haiz. gonna end up wasting another 4 hours. stupidity.

oh well. that's all then. pray for me, as i pray for you.
thanks..
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