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Sunday, June 19, 2005
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beh... today would have been a perfectly okae dae, actually.. almost a bit nice.. haha.. cause got my chinaman outfit lohh.. hahahah... perfect costume for all those imitations. haha. whatever lorh. aiyah.. basically got screwed up again. lemme rant.
ARGHAGHDSASIDASJNDijnogASPDMKSKDF moksdmfokmo. i have to get outta here. finish this, 'school' thing.. i've got loads to thank God for. i have my eyesight, ignoring that i've got to wear these stupid glasses. i can walk, talk, hear.. no deficiencies in particular, except to chinese medicine, HAH to that. and other stuf which nobody really wants to know about. but i'm a perfectly able bodied guy. maybe too able bodied. behh... seriously. since i'm so perfectly fine and normal, why can't you people just let me be?? let me go chase my dreams. the worst that can happen is i get supremely depressed and stay that way till i meet my death by some series of events that will seem so, natural, when it has happened. if it happens. but that's nothing.. i mean. it's like you people always say, ne? what is death? completely serious now. ugh.. i mean befoer i was worried about stuff. that i need to do. but i'm beginning to think, ugh, i'm alive NOW, why can't i do it now??? so frikkin useless... and you can go on delaying your death cause u have to do these things. and so you don't do them. as an excuse not to die. wt-.
seriously. the thing is, i believe i can acheive these dreams. i'm not stupid, just short of slightly smart. i didn't get into RI by luck. well, not completely anyway. i can work hard; if it's for a cause i believe in. something that i want; someting that's good; something that i believe can be done. i think it's that last requirement that has lead to me "disappointing" so many people. As accused, here i stand. so i disappointed you. but that's because you expected things of me in the first things. you expected normalcy. you expected an average guy. a hopeless, robotic zombie in the crowd. no go, people. there are cool people i know, and all, well mostly. well. some. okae, everyone has his or her downfalls. i should know. i have twice my fair share of them. and that's why it's not fair. but that's diversion, and i should shut up about that.
a guy has dreams, and there are many guys. guys. but this one can't stand being roboted into being an "average, middle-class, working, useful member of society". please. why "at least be this" and "at least do that" when you can be your most? yeesh... all the restrictions, and the blahh, making no sense at all. granted, that's only half of the troubles. a lot of stuff is, as we know it, put in place to stop us from harming ourselves. fine; i'm playing that game. this is a temple of God on the hop, can't get it smashed till it's time to go see my Maker. but that's it. if there's a reason not to do something, we won't do it, once we have the evidence that there is no reason to do it, and that there's something that deters us from doing it in the first place! d'oh.
okae. i'm done. i had other stuff, but they're gone now. whatever lorh. ugh.. gonna have to gather the posse, haha. see how.. wonder if arthur be back in time to catch monday's practice. whatever.
ooh.. blehh. right. the very reason why i came here tonight.
there's this thing see.. and i haven't been doing it. i mean, i haven't done it yet. i told myself, yea, i'll do it before this date, but them pooff, the day came and went before i even knew about it. well, i should have know it would come that fast, but blahblahsplatter and so on. but now i know, and i haven't done it yet. so blehhhh.
and i'm not talking about my homework.
yea well, i haven't done that either, but it's something closer to heart and soul, see. yea, whatever.. sighh. i really make myself hard to approach, don't i.
it's cliche, but i can't help saying it. it's kinda de ja vu that batman returns from my childhood to remind me of this.. how should we say it.. character of mine, again. so much for batman begins.
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