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Friday, November 10, 2006

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how does a coconut hit you?
at seven in the morning it in this time of the year, the sun's shining like midmorning, and random frivolous thoughts come to mind, like, it may well be the middle of the morning for some people who've been up for a while for one reason or the other. still, the streets are good and empty. even the maids are long done with the early morning car wash they usually do when i'm setting off to school. oh, there's one. it's probably the middle of the morning for them. and such.

after such a long period away from.. more or less everyone, i've been thinking about the simpler questions in life.. what am i going to do, make of it, this thing and that thing, short term and long term. comtemplate that life as a whole, in general, is never what we expect it to be: more specifically, then next phase of life that we try to prepare ourselves for.. no matter what dreams we have or plans we make, images we have or advice we've gained, it almost always tends to end up a situation which is totally not what you dreamed it to be. usually not as good. but we can adapt, we can accept, because we tell ourselves, this is what i've been working for, looking forward too all that time. i like it, i really do. and we do.

yeah, thinking about the different sides of a person's life. school, hobbies, friends, work, that other sort of work that you want to do, for some reason, but then again don't really want to do; the like. just, organizing thoughts, and in the process coming up with a multitude of new ones, hahaa..

being more conscious of simple thoughts that pop up as i do, normal things. it's nice having a one to one conversation, no matter where or when, or if it's just about simple things.. but it's nicer still to really be able to talk about.. serious things. the weather and present schoolwork and the like.. just seems to be conversation for the sake of it, that doesn't take people anywhere. not that conversation for the sake of it is always a bad thing.

dumdeedum. make myself finish the design tonight, i must have played around with different combinations for 2 hours before i decided, then took a bit of time settling some problems before finishing.. i think it looks good =) just an issue of colors now.. printing on shirts can be tedious x
haiz

and this whole tshirt thing make me notice too.. it's applicable in all situations, that one thing of so many of that issue that i've been thinking about. haah, complicated. people disagree a lot of the time, but a lot of the time also, alongside the disagreement, there is a general lack of understanding of what the other party believes. meaning, with the understanding, the disagreement may or may not remain..

and of course, then the issue at hand that i've always held firmly is that, there are infinitely many levels of understanding, so the only question is, who's on a higher level? because, although two people agree on the same thing, the one who knows more, who perhaps have had a this belief, then gained some knowledge and developed the opposite belief, then once again found that the thing that made him divert was falsified, as well as more evidence leading back to the initial stand, doesn't this person know more than one who simply had the first belief, and had not achieved further understanding of the issue? isn't the former able to act and speak and believe in what he does with more maturity, more firmness? and yet they have the same beliefs. which are you?

haiz.. i'm not sure if you'd understand. a general you, as always, from now till some time.. still, i believe that disagreements may always be there, due to different levels of understanding always, because there is no absolute revealed to our minds at this moment.. we can only hope to progress, and strive to gain greater understanding to act with greater maturity. disagreement should be handled firmly, but not too seriously.. and all things in the end towards learning.

haiz. that paragraph wasn't the topic i was trying to say at all.. but it's still something. maybe it's not the time to mention that yet, in any way. oh well. goodnight, you.
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