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Tuesday, October 28, 2008
erstwhile acquaintances to lifelong friends •
One small problem with talking openly is that people find out too many things that they wouldn't know otherwise; without actually having to spend time to get to know the person in concern. Sure you have to know about a feller's history to get to know him, but you don't really get to know a person just by talking about stuff, that's only the half of it. Personal things that people normally only find out after being friends for a really long time, sticking loyally through thick and think to slowly build up that silent connection and understanding; it's all coming out too much, too often in this society that it sometimes can get ugly. People whom you don't really know, who don't really know you, get to know things that matter to you, and who knows what happens then. The whole trouble with this wishy-washy new age desire to sit down and talk about one another and the relationship is the product, at least to some extent i believe, of that unreasonable need to cut things short, to scrimp on the time put into really getting to know a person. Maybe sometimes we really need to stop and consider that it's possible that sincere attempts to find out about people in this way can be quite mistaken, if we mean to be peple who can really say they have many close friends, rather than too many acquaintances who simply know far too much more than they ought. Still, often things aren't really all that simple. Life is fast-paced and we're all too aware of it, nobody will really turn away a sincere kindred spirit as long there's hope for something more than just another one-time connection. After all, as they say it's so often the case that we go through it all touching so few people, so seldom in such tiny ways only. It's always nice for everyone, to stop and tell one another that we're not alone. 6:57 pm Friday, October 24, 2008
so we all behave like we're that shallow •
10 days to the A's! I can't get to sleep, haha. Well, not because I'm dead excited about that, of course. It's one of those things that linger cause they're not resolved and the ending hasn't been good; either it takes two years then some time to accept, or a little more than courage and luck to fix.Things have been good, friends passing birthdays and we're all getting older and all. I'm ticking off the different aspects, and we're mostly doing well, praise God, haha. Well course not all good. Why'd you think I'm writing, eh? ;) I'm just really glad for Avonne, times like this, and I'm not shy to say it.. Even halfway across the world I can get unquestioning support and comfort for when a guy somehow gots to behave like a kid. Stupid, but I'm grateful, so so grateful. Hope things are going well! How's that for a shoutout, haha. Must have said it before, but J.L. was mostly right about me and running away. But James Licketty Dean knows I'm trying. I'm tired of trying to figure stuff out, whether it was mine or anyone's fault at all, none of it works out right, even to say it's noone's. It's not a reasonable thing, it's just that it's unsettling. It's that word that doesn't have a noun, I'm upset, haha. Such a bad time. Don't even start the blame game. I'd just wish for it to go back, or then way back. 多想回你身边. I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help [cometh] from the LORD, which made heaven and earth. He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber. Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD [is] thy keeper: the LORD [is] thy shade upon thy right hand. Psa 121:1-5 2:22 am |