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Friday, October 24, 2008
so we all behave like we're that shallow •10 days to the A's! I can't get to sleep, haha. Well, not because I'm dead excited about that, of course. It's one of those things that linger cause they're not resolved and the ending hasn't been good; either it takes two years then some time to accept, or a little more than courage and luck to fix.
Things have been good, friends passing birthdays and we're all getting older and all. I'm ticking off the different aspects, and we're mostly doing well, praise God, haha. Well course not all good. Why'd you think I'm writing, eh? ;)
I'm just really glad for Avonne, times like this, and I'm not shy to say it.. Even halfway across the world I can get unquestioning support and comfort for when a guy somehow gots to behave like a kid. Stupid, but I'm grateful, so so grateful. Hope things are going well! How's that for a shoutout, haha.
Must have said it before, but J.L. was mostly right about me and running away. But James Licketty Dean knows I'm trying. I'm tired of trying to figure stuff out, whether it was mine or anyone's fault at all, none of it works out right, even to say it's noone's. It's not a reasonable thing, it's just that it's unsettling. It's that word that doesn't have a noun, I'm upset, haha.
Such a bad time. Don't even start the blame game. I'd just wish for it to go back, or then way back.
I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.
My help [cometh] from the LORD, which made heaven and earth.
He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber.
Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.
The LORD [is] thy keeper: the LORD [is] thy shade upon thy right hand.