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Saturday, August 04, 2007
reading your eyes gets harder every day. •
i have this crink in the neck that keeps bothering me, and then i start dreaming, hahhaha. i don't know how people get to be together, up till now. things just seem to happen, and it's like there's some strange lassitude that prevents me from questioning. maybe it's the fear of knowing.
it's good to put today into perspective and look at the things you want to achieve in the shorter term sometimes, i guess. it's been an irrational thing to cling onto, at times, when everything else gives way; something to hold on to, just because i needed something, anything. and it could be a motivator to do things that have to be done, even though the motivation isn't always precisely right, but the need for the action is..
but sometimes i just fear falling into the trap of shopping for the future on credit of my trust in myself to do certain things, to pay the bills. in the end, dreaming together is inspiring and encouraging, but we've gotta walk the walk together before we actually get there. the question is always how far we will go.
and of course there's the thing about déjà vu. there's always that irrational feeling, and once in a long while something inside begins to convince oneself that hey, this is different. there's the reasoning and imagining stage, and then sometimes there's the stage of passivity where we just go, hey, if it's meant to be it'll happen, aye. but really, is it a matter of waiting, or did it fade because nothing was done. could it be, that we're all waiting for one another..?
it gets harder to read your eyes, with every passing day.
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