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Tuesday, October 31, 2006
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hello! haah k it's been a really long time hasn't it. seems that way anyway. hm what's been happening? hm starting from the recent.. belgariad is coming into my possession gradually, hmhm. several things to think about, amusing diversions. what is, is there a specific purpose in life? lol.. and various others, of course, but that one just came to me. and reasons. and other things. ok.
yeah ok the lung. dumb thing keeps breaking just after it gets fixed, every time i go to the hospital for a final in-case checkup, tadah! actually it's deteriorated! and you're gonna have to waste more time in the hospital! and you're gonna have to waste the holidays doing nothing if you don't wanna die! and the rest of your life too! bloody lung. yeah, i'm pretty pissed about it. it's interrupting everything.
hm what else. yeah well, no essay today. i'm coming to understand how hard it can be to read essays on things that you feel are quite pointless and well, just about a person talking about himself. i just realized i don't have that much to say on what happened anyway. since the last post - geof flew, finished seeing the biennale, messed around, poked hole and sucked out air frmo bubble in lung, wasted time in hospital, wasting time at home not being able to to anything with a constantly failing internet, yeah. that's it.
a lot of things to think about suddenly, its' hard to dwell, sometimes i just find myself wandering off and doing stuff. it's like some subconsciousness is still trying to make me not think, lol. yeah, i'm reading too much belgariad. but it's thought-provoking, and that's what counts.
yeah.. somehow feeling lethargic too. room redesign.. suddenly it seems too much of a hassle and waste of money, with the lung thing. anyway, parents gonna wait till the other place is sold till doing some stuff, so might as well wait and do at the same time. lol. excuses.
for similiar reasons, kayaking and training is put off for some time. oh, submitted subject combination today.. praying hard i'll get it.. but i'm not placing my hopes too high.. H2math, H2physics, H2chem, KI, and H1 econs. and of course i'll be taking chinese H1.. zz. hm design is something i can spend my time doing, i guess.. and jap... well.. it's just, hard. -.- i sit down with the books and before i can begin already have a sian feeling. i need some motivation man. something more obvious and less future-thingy-like.
hm ok. going through that old list has given me new idea, haah. maybe it's time i sketched out full diagrams of those two designs i had.. should be interesting going into detail. not very much is laid down, actually, just the concepts. hm.
no more hardcore blogging. internet lets me online occasionally only, when the router and modem both decide to work at the same time. stupid ancient stuff. anyway, i just somehow never have that mood anymore. i get a lot of thoughts, but it's just.. both consciously and subconsciously, i just don't wanna say it anymore. i dunno. it just seems quite pointless. maybe it's good enough that i know. maybe.. in the future, when i'm some old man, haah. but chances are at that time even fewer ppl would be interested in the things the idle greek philosophers busied themselves with.
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9:32 pm
Monday, October 23, 2006
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first singapore biennale was great. still have the smaller places to visist, but been to old city hall, tanglin camp and national museum already. it's just interesting to think, however amazing the artwork, it's just one piece of artwork amongst so many. it'll never last, physically, or in the minds of anyone. sooner or later, the novelty of the art becomes, that thing is weird, and eventually, forgotten. the more fortunate, if you could call them that, are just pieces of history. and seriously, nobody likes history that much, lol.
ok, that was random. geof's flown off with aileen, have fun lol. 4.30am in the morning, i'm sorry i couldn't have been there. stupid lung's healing though, i think i'll be alright soon. now it's just pain, i can breath a lot better. no singing yet though, don't want to risk it. pressure.
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k, i wrote all that way back then. just posting it up.. proper update later.
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3:05 pm
Friday, October 20, 2006
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i'm gonna push it back, because i'm really feeling physically lousy right now.
lol, i was just about to spam, but then started talking about the past. thinking about it, i really had a great childhood.. haha.. america really is quite a nice place when you're a kid without a care in the world.. the juice box culture, the natural greens of the suburbs, there were just so few people in the world, and everything was so perfect. i never really went to the city until we left monterey.. hahaaha.. and i don't remember anything of them really. but those were the days. too bad i didn't even realize i was living them when i was. and too bad that childhood is over.
anyway. yeah ppl, someone really took my breath away.. lol.. before yesterday night it was just pain, plus it was getting better. then suddenly this. it's like my lungs refuse to inflate enough, just can't breath. so many things planned for today, so many things to achieve. so many things planned for these days after exams, and all taken away because of this wretched lung problem. so many things in the past, so many things in the future, as always. so many things to long for, so many things to worry about.
so, everything was called of today, i'm gonna plan for tomorrow anyway. yup. been wanting to go and see the singapore biennale, but with all the projects and assignments, then exams.. just found out tomorrow is the 2nd last day they have those nifty badges, haha.. nice memento for the biennale, somehow this year it's such a big deal. i want! so, hopefully tomorrow the haze isn't too bad, but bad enough to deter too many people from going down and koping all the badges.. haha.. i'll just take it slow and hope i don't drop dead.
thankfull, kino is in the area, i can finally go and start picking up the belgariad. it'll be a source of money wastage for a while.. picking up the 13 books. lol.. the fantasy bug. it had better not last. hm, but somehow i seem to remember it striking before.. sometime.
also, part of then biennale is around tanglin, so i'm gonna waste a little time in that quiet little my cd shop and see if i can find some panpipe stuff, and some new bossa nova.. haha.
supposed to crash jiamin's flag day also, but no idea where that is and when, so it's pending. sunday morning geof is flying off.. now i'm beginnig to think it may not be such a good idea spending the night at changi alone. but then how to send off?! gah wdv.
then, the first yinC after eoys. no choir this week though, i wouldn't have been able to sing anyway. arnold and geof overseas till 30th, I HAD BETTER BE COMPLETELY WELL BY THEN you heard ah lung. or saw. or something. breathed.
yeah, i'm not in that mood. mood mood. it's all about moods, isn't it. moods and logic. how do they get along with each other, in the same body? compromises.. intertwining? blah. i know it wasn't gonna last, and it didn't, but sometimes i still wish. it had. anyway, looking ahead, i dunno what i want anymore. so, as jiahui keeps saying over the radiowaves in the night, maybe work will do it. time to quite being a useless crap.
don't wanna continue.. more crap will come out, now's not the time; physical torture not enough ah! gah this morning there was this really pro baritone on the radio, sang l'amore la musica or something. that song was beautiful man, started out sounding like song contemporary jazz, then became this awesome.. thing. it was just, awe. man, to sing like that. i gotta find that song XD kae off with me.
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