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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
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this morning went to this before and after school care center place in boon keng for CIP.. lol.. i have to say, it may not seem very contructive for either of us, but it was somewhat kinda fun. all of them pri sch kids, run here run there make many many noise. haha.. well, don't want to go into the 0.o details, but i think all of us who turned up had some fun bah, esp wen jun. wish i had brought a camera. wish i had had a camera to bring *shifty eyes*this week more or less full of choir pracs, best is friday, whole day -.- early morn to late evening. wdv.. concert is coming soon.. then after that choralfest concert, then start final preperations for end of year overseas competition.. think i will try to go bah.. haiz. which brings me to think abt next year, whether to do or nt, cause there's a tour every year over at RJchorale i belive. which brings me to think abt many may things in the near and not-so-near future that i'm gonna have to make decisions abt.. then things that i'm supposed to think abt now forget -.- gotta keep reminding myself abt chinese website tt i gotta do. content more or less there i think.. teach saw it a second time and gave me a look that said (i think+hope) why did i give you so low marks. oh well. chuck it into website and add some more then she has a chance to give more =] yeah. life is pretty random as sch returns slowly. this terms is busy busy cause end of years are the first/second week of term four. so yeah, this is about it. happy days. gotta get mugging mode working properly.. no play play with last year. at least the end of the term is advanced modules, which will break up the monotony a bit, with scattered lectures and stuff. just don't scatter across the whole day.. =/ which reminds me, there's this practical electronics thing i signed up for this thursday. or i think i did. just hope marcus sent in the application for me.. will take 6-8 hours off the time i'll have to do end of this term.. haha.. sacrifice now, slack later.. =] wait, what am i saying. that period will have to mug liao -.- ah. it feels like the sixteenth year is coming to a close already, i gotta start cleaning up my act and getting ready to make the next few years before ns come out right.. the last days of the year are always drama and nostalgia. well. get some work done now. later, i'll think about it then. but really, life kinda just throws up these totally random happenings that, played faster, it really could be a drama. last days in choir, there's usually something to laugh about when we get together for small grp singing.. and occasionally i get to have a little talk with geof, who can look at the world at the same level, and walk away having learnt something. there's wierdness in church, and the occasional random thing that pops up. like today.. i really wish i could make it for the finale with them this friday. meh. people have come up with so many things to liken life to, and some of them are really pretty dumb -.- i mean, take "Life is like a box of crayons. Most people are the 8-color boxes, but what you're really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners". plus "LIfe is like a kick in the ass, you never know when you're going to get it!" then there are the regular ones, just google it, really. people really don't think enough, or aren't able to express what they feel well enough.. well. better the latter than the former. but if life is a drama, then all we gotta do is make it natural. the best actors are those who really feel what they do, and they manipulate their feelings to respond to the needs of the moment. it's like how a single song can be sung so many ways. but what matters is u sing it with that intensity of emotion.. not just dead and unthinking, unfeeling, just belting it out or mumbling it unwillingly. if you don't like the song you're doing, go find your song. make ur song. christmas already brings the most emotions and thoughts, because i got to sing plenty the past few years, and there's no more academics to worry about until the next year began. just plonk down somewhere, or get walking, anywhere, and take in the people and the places. just taking a walk about the block can evoke so many thoughts.. i relearnt that this morning when i arrived early at boon keng and went out for a walk in the drizzle. but then again, emotions aren't something that we can change so easily, unless you have the will to. and often, even though we don't know it, we don't want to change how we feel. we want to feel exactly how we feel, like if someone close to you is injured, you'd be sad. maybe sad isn't such a hot feeling, but you wouldn't want to feel any other way, because of what is. you could distract yourself by doing something else, but if it were that serious it wouldn't feel the right thing to do anyway. but it's like a song.. if i'm torn up, i'll give it to the song, even is it were something that wasn't meant to be sad anyway. what matters is that i can get the emotions out, and make something beautiful of it; make music. let sadness drive us to help, anger to drive us to fight, joy drive us to love. it's case to case.. and i'm just saying it. it's not easy.. i have troubles and i just can't do it either.. but i have to keep trying.. maybe this could help you too. 6:47 pm |