danne
grace
valerie
drop the fork!
jiamin
fiona
yinC
becky
ruth
yingyi
xinyi
peiyi
sokyin
amanda
pamela
brenna
tammy
rowena
raffles voices
kwoks
ahguan
rjchorale
wenhao
ruth
huilin
nikki
avonne
gen
suet
mermaid
wenyi
deb
joelle
royce
08S06S!

she always said i was a work in progress
diamond in the rough
she said a lot of stuff about
openin' my eyes, showin' me the world
even though i never liked to venture far from home

but what's so bad about even stevens
steady and reliable, easily deniable
habits, and rituals, grounded to the bone
and i guess that's why i am alone

don't fix what's broken, i said to her
i just don't care
don't fix what's broken
what will i do, if you're not there
cause if you ever go,
i'll never know, how to put myself together again

she said to me why don't you give up, give up
but how can you just give yourself and never count the cost
she said you gotta put your cards on the table
but don't you understand that's not adventure but a loss

i heard enough about self improvement
pardon me i think i'm going fine all on my own
she said you better losen up those heartstrings
or you're gonna wake up all alone

don't fix what's broken, i said to her
i just don't care
don't fix what's broken, what will i do
if you're not there
cause if you ever go now i'll never know
how to pull myself together again......

she said, jump into the water
but i don't like to swim
she'll never understand my reasons why
she'll get tired of my game someday
eventually she'll walk away
and all i can do is wave goodbye..

i never said i was a genuis, genius
never said i didn't have a thing or two to learn
but, old dogs, new tricks, matches and a house of sticks
sounds a little like a recipe for getting burned

so dont' go talking 'bout changes, changes
i've become accustomed to my fear of the unknown
well baby here's your heaven, what's your hurry
why'd you have to leave me all alone

don't fix what's broken, i said to her
it's just not fair
don't fix what's broken, what will i do
now you're not there
don't fix what's broken, i said to her
it's just not fun
don't fix what's broken, (now it's too late)
i've come undone

why did you have to go, now i'll never know
how to put myself together again~

today was a weird day.. after yesterday's thinking about the whole big mess that is, today just reminded me there's another problem that i've just been avoiding on and on.. it just can't go on like this, gotta do something about it.. and then had to go for project work, hahAhha.. have to say i'm really glad for my class.. there's some peace even if we're all business about stuff, at least i don't have to keep worrying about.. all that stuff.

went back and hit carls juniors after walking the other direction past esplanade, and i got lunch cause i hadn't eaten, charmaine too.. and halfway through my burger tzung just couldn't take it anymore and got himself one too, hahaha.. then they just took the huge cup and mixed all the different drinks into it and shared, lol.. only xiayi held out without eating anything, but he drank in the end, hahaha.. fun. it's relaxing somehow. ironic.

"someone's lost their heart.. "

it's true that you need crap to happen for you to treasure people, i guess.. so maybe in that sense i should be.. thankful..? haha.. you asked if i was just going to lie there and emo, and when i said, i dont' know and you just went, aiyo.. i could have just hugged you, haha. hmm but i shouldn't be saying anything eh, later someone come after me =x hahAhhaha..

was good talking with fiona and kwoks too, but that's just.. involved in the big mess, unavoidably.. discovering things. beginning to understand people that i've been with for, 2 years, four years.. the way that they think and work.. it's weird to think of it in this way, but in essence that's just how you really get to know people, to get close. huhh.

today's just been a small relief, cause i've been able to take on a less fuddy persona, is all. i get to be all dancy walking here and there and around town, be the driving force in the stuff and basically chill. gah. but everything remains, huhh. ahh shucks.

for a brief moment, when i can push all the regret about all the things that could be, and ignore the upset-ness of all the preconceptions and opinions people have from what they've heard from certain people.. i just wish it were over. if you want to win this way, there's nothing i can do.. all i can do is talk, and that could work either way for me. what have i to lose, then, you ask? why not go for it? i don't know. i'm just trying to pluck up the courage.