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Wednesday, December 29, 2004
numb. •
sigh. mixed feelings here.
was just packing all da boxes of stuff to bring over to me new cave over at the warren tmr... real cool place, super glad my parents decided to move in instead of sell it for a fifty thousand dollar profit. lol. dumped all e unimportant stuff into 2 huge cardboard boxes for e movers to ship over, then left all e other stuff. brings back memories... somehow with all these stuff packed away, i feel better. lol, not cause i can stop packing already after one dusty, stinking day, but cause i don't feel any worse. um. lol. it's like i can just throw away everything. any time, boss. cause those stuff ain't important to me. the stuff that really are can't be packed into boxes, big or small. they're thoughts; memories, feelings. knowledge. knowledge that the peeps i love are safe. that their going to be in heaven with me for all eternity. well some of them anyway. and that's why i gotta get going. some aren't. and some, you just don't know, ya know what i mean? it's like, from what you hear, really know, their like, supposed to. but you just don't know. i guess that's the case for everyone i know, it's just that with certain people it's really unsure. to me. dat's why i wanna get to know everybody i know better. but sometimes... it's just kinda... i don't know, awkward? shyness? plain stupidity? lol, PMS, permanant masculine stupidity. yea eric, i know it's lame. really. i just can't help myself. today was supposed to like, how do you call it. meet up with danitza. but... but what. i haven't the slightest idea. ok maybe that's not entirely true, but i just don't know why kae. i'm just being stupid. bleh. stupid stupid stupid. i just thought about it, how it wld happen, and it was so wierd, and blehasdmlaskmda. this is so wrong. if it helps, dan, sorry. slap me when we actually meet. if we ever do. =.= came across the RJC choral exploits concert leaflet. hong king is in e raffles chorale :D JC 2 this year izit? what university are ya going to? lol. he hardly knows me. but i knew him all da way back from when he was head boy or soemthing in mi primary school. yea. hoo boy. JC choir really has more gals den guys. super few tenors this year too. like, prob around ten. i didn't count. and so i hate all boy schools even more. it's all right for the girls. but wth. it right screws us guys up to be in a all boys school. esp. during sec sch. like, main growing up time people. what is wrong with you. we gotta get used to regular society dudes. and so. everything of this world comes only to pass. enjoy it or bear with it while it lasts. yupp. thot of e rhyme when i was packing up. if u need some inspiration go clean your room. it works :D i am such a screwed up guy. my mask, it's stuck on. can't get it off. do i even want to? i don't know. would that affect how my friends, people i know, people i don't even know treat me? should that even matter? 11:51 pm |